I don't get it. I have so many wonderful blessings, and my life is filled with such wonderful family and friends. So why can't I be happy with my portion? Instead I envy my fertile friends. When they tell me they're expecting I wish them an easy pregnancy and a quick delivery and a healthy baby.
But inside -- I have a five year old kicking and screaming and throwing a temper tantrum "Not fair!"
How come I can't learn to appreciate what I've got?
And also I wonder what will happen to my friendships. All of my married friends but S and D will become parents over the next six months. Their lives will change completely and what will we have in common? Everyone will be focused on his or her baby.
I will be watching from the window.