Sunday, November 18, 2012

In Which Our Heroine Emerges from two VERY LONG months

...only to be headed toward another busy one: cardiac care unit.  But at least I have done my two months as a senior resident leading a team and for the rest of the year only need to supervise myself.  Leading a team is challenging, especially when you constantly function with half a team because of peoples' days off and clinics.  It's disjointed and I wish there was a better system.  But nobody wants to read about how the ACGME mandated duty hours actually harm my education and patient care, so I will step down from my soapbox.

I don't have much of an update right now on operation In Futility.  I can tell you that this next cycle may be a major reflective point.  If it fails, we are again out of embryos.  I don't know what the next move should be.  Do we find a third egg donor and transfer to a different clinic?  Northwestern clearly hasn't brought us great success and I know there are some excellent clinics in Surrogate's state.  But is there a point?  Why do the same thing over and expect different results?

Except I don't know what other option I have.  Husband is still absolutely unwilling to adopt.  And I am unwilling to live without children.  My mentor/internist/person who tolerates my self-centered ridiculousness says that Husband will reconsider with time and that I should learn patience.  I know she's right that I need to learn patience.  But I'm not patient.  I have never been patient.  I wish I could be but I don't even know how to learn patience.

Dear readers: How does one learn patience?  Can it even be taught?  Personality traits are so difficult to change.

1 comment:

  1. You don't need a clinic in a safe state just a surrogate in a safe state. If your surrogate goes to NY to get pregnant and goes home to her safe state it can be sdone. But get a surrogate pregnant and deliver in NY is illigal!!!